Insomnia

It's been a long time since I've had this kind of insomnia. Sure, lots of times I can't sleep, usually due to worry or illness or some other negative thing. But last night I had the good kind of insomnia. You know, when you can't sleep because you're so excited about what is going on or about what will happen next-- like when you're a kid on Christmas Eve or like when Joy would put a crockpot of soup on to cook overnight and I would wake up at 3 a.m., because it just smelled so good. Tomorrow is so full of potential that it's hard to wait.

I wasn't prepared for this feeling. I had a long conversation with Pastor and Jennie last night. One of those that starts out with, "Let's talk about a certain situation" but quickly develops into, "Let's talk about Karyn's life issues and spiritual needs." :-) I don't always exactly enjoy these kinds of conversations, but I am always thankful for them. But last night I couldn't sleep because of the excitement that was running through my mind.

God is working in my life. He is answering my prayers to show me where I need to change to be more like His Son. He is preparing my heart learn more of Himself. He loves me so much that He is intervening once again in my life for my good. He's also answering prayers for provision and direction in the lives of people that I care about around me. God is working, and I am thrilled to be allowed to be be part of His plan.

I woke up as soon as light came through my window. BEFORE MY ALARM! Don't panic, it would be too good to be true if that became a habit. The excitement was just still lingering on. So, yeah, I have an overwhelming and frightening list of "things to work on," but if God cares enough to let me know what those things are, I am excited to see how He will work to help me overcome them.